He gave me a pocket watch as a constant reminder of how much time passes. For me, time is something no one can change. You cannot bring back what's lost. You cannot go back, you can only move forward while you reminisce about the past. It is a symbol, the gravity that holds people, reality, and history together.
I imagine myself floating back to the time when everything was perfect. But it was too long ago. I'm afraid that if I closed my eyes too tight for too long, I might never find my way back. I might not want to go back.
Before the end of last year, I decided to just let it be. To wait until every thing returns to normal, until wounds won't hurt anymore, until my heart starts beating (again) because of happiness and not only because it has to. Life has given me so much pain and I guess it's time to learn from them. It will never be easy, but I hope you will stay with me till I'm strong enough to tell you 'it's alright'.
"It's dark now and I am very tired. I love you, always. Time is nothing."
- Audrey Niffenegger, The Time Traveler's Wife
♡ haze ♡
The time never come back again, all we can do it make best of present time which is in our hands.
ReplyDeletetrue ♥
DeleteYes, our past is lost to us... You just have to look forward. Keep smiling and hoping that tomorrow will be better. :)
ReplyDeleteI used to live in my memories, and I became a ghost. So I stopped, and I came alive again. It's better to accept that things will never be as good as they once were, and try to make the present moment beautiful instead. It will be alright, I truly believe in you. x
ReplyDeleteYou make me cry, B, thank you. It's nice to know that someone has already been like this before. Makes me feel less alone ♥
DeleteYour watch is lovely! I adore pocketwatches. You're right - dwelling in the past will only hold us back. I hope your tomorrows are as beautiful as your smiling face. I am here with you for as long as you want me to be. :)
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Yes! I've been eyeing this one since December and Ian gave this to me on his birthday :) Thank you, Melee, from my heart.
DeleteThis was an amazing post.
ReplyDeleteHave you ever looked up the "Ulysses Club of New Zealand"? They're what makes me excited at the prospect of continuing to age. (I feel like such a crone already compared to most people on Blogger and at work!)
Lots and lots of love to you!
xoxoxo
Haha. Crazy woman! Yeah, I heard about that. When I grow old, I would like to ride with you (but I need a ticket to NZ first).
DeleteThank you Peri! Love you too forever!
Amazing post, haze.
ReplyDeleteAnd the watch is so meaningful and lovely.
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Thank you, Mist ♥
DeleteBeautiful post, time is a really scary concept, it never stops to care about you and your little life.
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Scary and magical, unfair sometimes. Ahh!
Deletehi haze im pluggin u on my blog. see u around.
ReplyDeletewow, thank you quin ♥
ReplyDeletethese photos are so cool! hello darling! how have you been? i love the new look of your blog :) i hope that everything is going well <3
ReplyDeletelove you, jamie
Jamie! Oh everything's perfectly well. Thank you so much. How are you?
Deletethere's something very surreal about this post. :) It's very beautiful.
ReplyDeleteAlthough it kinda makes my heart ache thinking how time is slowly ticking away. :(
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Deletethank you lovely.
I love your blog so much, I love everything about it.
ReplyDeleteYour words and photos are amazing and so is that pocket watch.
Thank you for your support and your gorgeous comments.
It means a lot.
I hope you're well lovely.
Love Anafly
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Aww anafly. I'm so glad you're back. Thank you so much for this comment! Love you!
DeleteI love the effect of your photo..amazing editing!
ReplyDeletewishing you the best of 2012!
♥ Thanks ganda! I've been experimenting with PhotoScape lately :D haha! Ka-loka!!
DeleteI am in love with this post and the pictures here. How awesome!
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Thank you so much my darling viiiiiiju!
DeleteI was your follower some days back, but I deleted my previous blog and now created a new and a permanent one!
ReplyDeleteYour writings, as usual, feel and sound beautiful! :)
Following you again! :)
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thank you darling ♥ oh! i have lovely internet friends from India. May i ask the name of your old blog?
Deleteoh hey, you changed your layout again.
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Sometimes the best thing to do to heal the wounds is to let it pass with time. I love your pocket watch ganda. And your pictures are fabulous. Vintage is love.
ReplyDeleteThere are moments when we wish time would just stop,so we could stay longer at someone else's arms and feel the warmth of their embrace.
ReplyDeleteand then sometimes we also wish it would fly faster, so our wounds would heal and painful thoughts would disappear.♥
I think time is magical. Yes,we often take it for granted but time itself could bring a huge change in our lives.
I love the way you write. I can tell u're really passionate. :)
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