Thursday

tonight we are young. we can burn brighter than the sun.

There were so many things that I promised that day, to myself, when I officially became twenty-three. Things that I penned years ago, and one I felt that I should so suddenly. I am yet to enjoy every moment of the entire year before it ends, and start again from this newly-found hope to a new beginning. I do apologize for being too straight-forward and fast, as I am attempting to run along and get my lost time back to its track. I am dove-tailing; doing three different things at a time, creating and recreating, wondering, wandering, dreaming new and old dreams again, and magic? I still believe them, but I know the limits now. Mom told me that I should learn to grow up and stand on my own, and I'm observing how to. Next year, when all these are over, she will be proud of me. You all will. 

December 18, Tuesday.
It was the tiny tears in his eyes that made me surrender. I know from that moment, on my twenty-third, that I am to protect a heart forever, and I will do so until my last night on earth was over and my star has reached its dying day.
I hope everyone is making the most of these holidays.
- h a z e

14 comments:

  1. Merry Christmas Haze and have a blessed new year.. :)

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  2. merry merry christmas haze. you are so very very beautiful, just as precious as your words

    xxxx

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  3. Merry Christmas, haze!
    You are beautiful, and your words are healing.
    I can sense so much happiness in you, which makes me happy too. :)
    <3 <3

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  4. every single time I read one of your posts I feel I'm reading something I wrote.. we are so much alike, I promise...
    that thing your mom says, my mom tells me too..actually has been telling me for years, but I still refuse to grow up.. there's something about being mature and act all adult that does not appeal to me at all.. peter pan complex? perhaps... and even though I work and make my own living... still I can't cope with the idea of leaving my dreams, illusions, imagination, wondering and wandering, fantasies and beliefs in magic behind.. I just can't.. I think I'd be killing a big part of me.. and since I had my heart broken.. I think I'd be killing the only part in me left.
    take care darling.. you are not alone in neverland :)

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  5. Such a lovely post! Merry Christmas!

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  6. Omg you're so gorgeous! I want to put you in a fairy elf costume with epic facepaint 0.0

    You reminded me of my favourite lyrics from a Linkin park song:
    "I'm strong on the surface, not all the way through. I've never been perfect, but neither have you"

    You have written beautiful words. You can stand on your own feet AND have dreams and magic. Peter Pan learned that in Hook. It is possible.

    I'm always proud of you, Haze!

    P.S.
    I'm scared of rottweiliers because Mum's friend had a badly-trained, aggressive territorial one who had to be chained up in advance whenever we came over so it didn't attack us. Nonstop aggressive body-language and barking :(

    Omg yes sheep are that cute in real life! Especially the orphan lambs. Feeding them makes you nearly die from cuteness!

    Sheep sounds a bit different to goats. Slightly lower in pitch and gah I don't know how else to explain.

    I have talked about trying to break up with miles because of my brain being fucked up. That may be it?

    You have a good christmas too, ok? A great holidays season. Love you so much haze and I have missed you. Take care of yourself, ok?

    *huggles*

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  7. thanks for the welcome back, hun!
    you're gorgeous <3

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  9. You are too beautiful and wonderful.
    I miss you.

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  10. Well hello, beauty! :)

    I am trying to get my lost time back on track too. *sigh*

    I am sure we will all be proud of you. Very proud. :) Because you are strong and know how to keep magic always withing touching distance.

    I hope you had a lovely Christmas. ♥

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  12. Take the time to breathe.
    Look up to the stars in wonder.
    Follow your dreams.
    You have a beautiful soul; a light that burns bright.
    Love x

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It feels like my heart has been bewitched by you and is keeping track of time on it's own.