Tuesday

I turn to you.
I always turn to you.
In the future, I know that I will still.

And the river wasn't deep.

It feels strange.
It feels like my heart has been bewitched.
and you're to blame.
It keeps on floating.

It wasn't deep.

And I lost control.
I'm losing control.
Can't stop losing control.

You sailed.

And you told me,
"I miss you. I miss you"
it was only yesterday,



I keep falling
and you keep mending
Don't you ever get tired, dear?
(Please don't.)

You keep sewing holes in my heart.
Tears fall out of nowhere and you just keep on wiping,
Pale cheeks that was once tinted with roses,
why?

Don't you ever get scared?
They told me brokenness is contagious.
And your beauty doesn't deserve it.
I need you to stay fixed.
Stay fixed for me.


43 comments:

  1. Everytime I open your blog, I am refreshed. New layout na naman. I love every single version of it! I love this poem, I have a thing for broken people. I feel the undying urge to love them.

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    1. Broken people often thinks they shouldn't be loved. I don't really know how I got the idea. But it's really heartwarming to know how you feel about them. Others tend to, maybe, push them farther away.

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      Hehe. Aiz-Aiz baby, I can't decide eh. There's just too much to do with the lay-outs. Pero right now, I'm enjoying the bright colors.. (hanggang sa mag-iba na ang mood ko! :>)

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  2. Brokeness is contagious, so why do we carry on? Surely it would mean more to stop.

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  3. This was so lovely. I love this. It feels how I feel at the moment. Your blog is always filled with such beautiful things! Thank you for your kind words :)

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    1. Always, darling :) Thank you :)♥

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  4. Sad and dreamy as always - your blog is my favourite place for beautiful melancholy! xx

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    1. Caroline! :)
      Thanks for visiting, dear. It's supposed to be a love letter originally.. then it turned out to be like this. Thanks for being here today, lovely. It means a lot.

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  5. my dear Haze....I've missed you. But hey, I've found your blog again, so now I'm happy <3

    love you always,
    ~Lily

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    1. yeah, it makes me feel i'm someone special ♥ thank you :)

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  7. Broken people deserve all the care they could get and yet again, your words are full of magic.

    I miss you ganda, how are you?

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    1. i miss you too dear ganda.. ♥ ♥ ♥

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  8. Ok, NOW I've remembered how to cry.

    You are so beautiful, always beautiful and kind and gorgeous.

    You're better than koalas, you're a gorgeous Tui singing unbelievable melodies from across the sea.

    *huggles*

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    1. Hehehe... Peri, you made me feel sooo much better now. Duh! I'm sick and yesterday all i did was sleep. It's insane. And now I'm smiling because of you. I love you!

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  9. Oh this is beautiful. I think you've brilliantly captured what it means to have someone who cares for you, and the doubt of wondering if you will start to weigh too heavily on them. (But it's amazing how strong someone can be when they're filled with love for you. I don't necessarily know this from experience, but I feel absolutely that it's true.)
    Anyway, I don't know if I'm just totally bunny-trailing now... hehe.

    I'll stop and end by saying this: I love you! ♥

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    1. Melee! Thank you for this comment! Hehe... Atleast there's one person who understands. Oh, I can't really explain it well and you did that for me.

      I love you! Love you! Love you!

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  10. Beautiful. I've missed your writing, dear.
    I know it's been a while and you have probably forgotten my blog, but I want to thank you for your kind comment.
    I hope you have been well,

    skeletal dreams, x

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    1. Dear! How could I forget you and your lovely blog? I'm so happy to see you here again I couldn't even express it :) ****Hugs****

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  11. A magical piece of writing, yet again. It's the kind of post that can bring a smile on my face yet it can make me cry. So dreamy and broken in a way... Beautiful.
    Love

    ~ Meg

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    1. Meg, my beautiful darling. Thank you so much for the email. It means a lot. I have to visit your blog soon too. I've missed you and I love you!

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  12. i still, i still love you ♥

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    1. aw! Sugar, you made me smile thank you! I love you and also, I need to visit your blog too. *sigh*

      p.s. Oh, you wonderful people are coming back, it makes me so happy :)

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  13. See, I was right. You look beautiful!

    And what a post! Kudos! :)

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    1. you too, darling. Thank you so much!xx

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  14. This is beautiful! I too am a fan of writing :p xx Forever Nineteen

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    1. Thanks for the visit, Chari. It means a lot xx

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    1. I hope you are well now, Tywo.
      Mahal kita. Don't ever forget that.

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  16. This is lovely.
    Also, thank you darling.

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  17. you are kind always and you have such a good heart and soul. i adore you haze, for the goodnes of your heart. you deserve the best.

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    1. Loulou, i'm so glad to see your comment. How are you? I've missed you! I've missed you a lot. Hope you've been well.

      And --- thank you. Dear, your words mean the world. Love you!

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  18. That's so beautiful, haze. you are a sensitive girl, in a good way. :)

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  19. lovely words...the fear and the love, both. x

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  20. Oh this is beautiful. 'They told me brokenness was contagious'. That especially. Don't let yourself break, love. x

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  21. Gosh, every time I read your blog I'm mesmerised by your beautiful words.
    This was nice.

    "Why do all yesterdays feel so helpless"- so so so true.

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  22. This is such a wonderful poem you have here. :)

    Latest: Saffron, A Most Valuable Plant

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  23. It's so nice to read your blog again<3 Your writing is always so beautiful!

    I don't quite know how to say it, but... I've felt this before. And, well... I just know that things will get better. It might not feel like it, but I know it will!

    Love you! <3

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It feels like my heart has been bewitched by you and is keeping track of time on it's own.