If you were here, we'd be chasing daydreams and sang songs
and you'd read me tales about friendships and promises
and of love I've forgotten once before.

Two more days, darling.
Don't make me wait for too long.

time turner

He gave me a pocket watch as a constant reminder of how much time passes. For me, time is something no one can change. You cannot bring back what's lost. You cannot go back, you can only move forward while you reminisce about the past. It is a symbol, the gravity that holds people, reality, and history together. 

I imagine myself floating back to the time when everything was perfect. But it was too long ago. I'm afraid that if I closed my eyes too tight for too long, I might never find my way back. I might not want to go back.

Before the end of last year, I decided to just let it be. To wait until every thing returns to normal, until wounds won't hurt anymore, until my heart starts beating (again) because of happiness and not only because it has to. Life has given me so much pain and I guess it's time to learn from them. It will never be easy, but I hope you will stay with me till I'm strong enough to tell you 'it's alright'.

"It's dark now and I am very tired. I love you, always. Time is nothing."

- Audrey Niffenegger, The Time Traveler's Wife

♡ haze ♡

no need to say goodbye

"Just because everything's changing

Doesn't mean it's never been this way before

It's just a feeling and no one knows yet

But just because they can't feel it too

Doesn't mean that you have to forget"

- The Call, Regina Spektor

There are no words.

Just a song that takes me back to another place.

+ h a z e +

Too much thoughts for January.

hazed. fragmented.

You held me just before I've broken down and tried to save my 

soul from losing it's parts. But something's just couldn't be saved.

No matter how many times you wished and prayed and begged 

the stars and  looked for the moon. 

But you were here and that's e n o u g h.

♪♪

"So don't you worry your pretty little mind

People throw rocks at things that shine..."

Today consist of:

Sun-kissed skin. Strawberry sundae. Report card. 

Korean Dramas. Peach-mango pies. Blue glitters...

Many thanks to all my followers ---> CONSTELLATIONS

♡

haze

my heart nearly cried!

All the things you said, I keep them all inside my head.

Simba sleeps like a newborn babe. Sweet, gentle in every way. I hope he stays like this the whole day, for only in his sleep do I catch special moments of him. He's majestic, solitary, and r u d e - haha my rude little tiger, that is!

♥

My baby sister got her heart broken by some boy in school. I want to punch him straight in the face and kick his butt into the trash bin. But she seems fine now, or at least "looked" fine, said bye-bye with a smile before she went to school.

"lift your head, baby, don't be scared

of the things that could go wrong along the way

you'll get by with a smile

now it's time to kiss away those tears good bye

too doo doo...too doo doo ♪♪"

♥

things that make me smile:

+ fried chicken +

+ deep conversations +

+ emails from friends +

+ the way the wind enters my window +

+ wishing at 11:11 +

+ daddy long legs +

+ pixie dusts in my pointer +

don't worry, i won't change blog lay-outs again. (unless i want a pink or something)

h a z e

Mahal kita, soulmate.

We would hold hands and buy coffee and chocolates. We'll never even worry about getting drunk on love and caffeine as if both were infiltrated into our veins like medicines. Kisses, rosettes and violets along with all the things we've never thought could last. 

We'll be celebrating his birthday on Thursday, January 12. What shall I give him? My words won't be enough to mend his heart. His heart that's beautiful and broken and full of promise.

"You may not believe me but, even before he told me his name, 

I felt as if I already knew who he was." - Nanami, Bokura ga Ita

for eternity

My letters start being real
the moment you read them.
without you,
it's just a collection of words
scribbled & painted.
holding no meaning. Useless.
I fear that someday
some of them will quietly fade away
be forgotten
alongside those emotions
that were once and will always
be a part of my existence.
But you, your beautiful soul,
promised eternity.
And I, with all my heart,
promises the same.

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I've been spending too much time with myself and feeling happy about it. If it's only because of the weather, then I would gladly press my heart on it for awhile and maybe a little longer. For this moment may be gone tomorrow, but the memory of it will be tattooed on my skin forever.

I hope you are all having a wonderful day. Smell the flowers, sweet things. 

We all deserve to be happy.